Mail to Only Person Who I Think Listens to Me… Don’t Know For How Much Longer Though

I dislike smartphones, I am unfriending people on facebook and unfollowing on tumblr while constantly thinking of one place under the sun where I won’t be required to be socially active, to be replying to them audibly… one place where no one goes…. But, there is no way out ’cause I am quintessentially moving backward in time–lesser people on roads, empty streets, forsaken nights and corners, wooden racks filled with old old books, people minding their own business… less light, more sight… I am going to freak out soon and become a psychopath. It was better when I hadn’t given up completely on music with lyrics… wasn’t this repulsed by sex. Funny thing is that denying to succumb to it has in a way broke down whole construct of this world–prettiness doesn’t matter, showing off doesn’t matter, people become noise, visuals become annoying. What is making it all even worse is my sharp observation and how quickly my head associates words to visuals making them stories… even groping couple sitting in moving moving cabs, rickshaws,  number plates which aren’t in middle are becoming noisy… I am constantly ignoring… but I need to find a thought to base the approach rock solid upon.
I am really sorry that you’re having to listen all this… I had warned you ’bout myself, tried to keep a distance too ’cause I know I can become an annoyance. Worse still, soon you’ll begin to feel that you’re having to lug me, that I am kerfuffle… ’cause you belong to an entirely different approach towards life, people and everything… your set of friends think differently.. feel differently.. sorta beach-goers with ‘live life and love freedom’ kind slogans on bumpers(it’s not contempt, just indifference which I cannot help).. but since you’re so good a person, you wouldn’t just stop talking to me… but I might sense it… crap!
I promise that I am going to always be as rational as possible, so as I don’t become an annoyance. 

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