I am 23. It’s impossible for me to live without internet. But, lately I am failing to stand all the noise–people who are sad, people who are happy and people who haven’t reached a conclusion yet, their facebook ‘shared’ posts, lyrics in music etc. Basically, I can keep staring at an empty wall for hours…. But, I have to go out and not look disgusted or exhausted. It wouldn’t look so but I am a very welcoming person with ability to let people be, but they have to be genuine. Ads, hoardings and brooding are taking toll on me! Big fucking time! In a metropolis like New Delhi, there is no escape ’cause they’re all practically zombies and only want to sell and buy! In public transportation, it’s just an awful lot of people either trying to display their wellness of living or their smart phones with facebook always logged in and instant sharing of instants, offloading the whole point of living the moment… disowning the life that was in that moment completely as it brought nothing but similar line of thought–it felt memorable? snap it, upload it and try showing how happy you are… as if locked in same loop of series of actions… like you cannot be what you cannot upload. I never have bought a smart phone, I prefer to keep dumb and left behind.
What is causing the most worry is this feeling of being through because it is where I live, this is my generation and I, am afraid to say, have no escape anywhere because an awful lot of people from the last two generations are trying to look younger and are trying to do the same thing as we are–sorta time travel for them! … I am also quite worried that I am failing to bear music with lyrics… it in fact explains all.
Playing Opeth presently and since I immensely love the band, it’s sound… I am being able to stand it.